ugh.

It's 5:30 a.m. right now and I'm not tired. This is the same week that I've gone to bed at 8:30, 4:30, 0r 4 a.m. And now I can hear someone's alarm going off and Gemini scratching my sister's door.

This sucks. I can't keep doing this.

It Makes A Man Wanna Smile.

2:03 AM. Listening to Whale Tape, reading Big Sur by Kerouac. Room lit by Christmas lights and fake candles.

I'm not going to fall asleep tonight. :/

Happy Christmas!

Santa Claus is Comin' to Town

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I drove up to North Conway tonight to ride on the Polar Express. And I have a few problems with that.

1. It's supposed to come to MY house.
2. Not enough hot cocoa and NO candy canes.
3. The elves were bigger than me.
4. NO TOM HANKS?!
5. The kids were dicks.
6. Didn't see ONE reindeer.
7. Had to drive to North Conway.

However, there were some good things.

1. Got a free scarf.
2. Met Santa.
3. Got a free bell (don't worry - I can hear it.)
4. Discovered that the North Pole is only like a 20 minute train ride from No. Conway.
5. Ate Burger King after.
   

Still, the cons outweigh the pros.

Sorry Santa.

Also, I've noticed that all this chai drinking is starting to take its toll on me. So tomorrow I'm going for a bike ride and maybe a jog. Most likely neither.

I do not need a blog. At all. When I run into people I haven't seen in a while and they ask me what I've been up to, I always respond with, "Not much, you?"

Always. Ulwayz.

Anyways, I'm 20 now. 10 years ago I was 10. 10 years from now I'll be 30. No longer a teenager but I act like I'm about to become one. I wash dishes 8 hours a week for minimum wage. I live in my parents' house and drive my parents' car. They still pay for mostly everything because I make $50 a week. I go to a community college because no four-year school would accept me (I wouldn't have either if I were them; I had a 1.67 GPA when I graduated high school.)

But that was all ages 10-19.

I'm going to make 20-29 much more productive and progressive.

Hopefully 30-39, too.

List of Things to Do Over the Next Ten Years:

1. Get full-time job.
2. Work hard in school.
3. Read/learn more.
4. Play music more than video games.
5. Save money from full-time job.
6. Get degree.
7. House/Apartment.
8. Start jogging again.
9. Career.
10. Become financially stable.
11. Work hard in career.

List of Things to Do Over the Next Ten Weeks

1. Open checking account.
2. Pay parking tickets ($65).
3. Buy Christmas presents (sister, Jaclyn, dad).
4. Garage show (who? when?)
5. New Years (who? where?)
6. Start school.
7. Find another job.
8. Sustain life (cigarettes, chai, gas) until I get a new job.
9. Read/learn more.
10. Work hard in school.
11. Play music more than video games.

You'll Miss the Nothings More Than Everything

Over the past few years (I say years because I wrote "Birds, Not Ghosts" in 2007 I think and "I Shouldn't Be Here" in '08), I've been working on an EP.  It's mostly a collection of songs but they do tie into each other with varying themes and/or images.

You can download it here: